Your Friend's Baby

The trees overhead
Created an interesting sky
The ocean a parade of blue
To my left
The people made noises
That buzzed in my head like bees
And I was fine
Till I felt your little hand
Grab the back of my shirt
(Till your fingers tore a hole in my heart)
And behind my sunglasses
I felt my eyes leaking
Forth sorrow
That I couldn't explain

Full of Gravity

I feel
So full of gravity today
My heart
Like a stone bird
Made to fly
But too heavy
To move
My throat
Closing over
With unshed tears
Do you get to look back?
To see those left behind?
Or is your heart too full of your creator?
Your mind set to the future?
That I could be that here
In the heavy atmosphere of life
A heart full of my creator
A mind set to the future

The Untruths

I have made a lot of mistakes
And now they are all I think of
I didn't know you
That's the truth of it
That's the shame of it
Everything was untrue
What we thought about each other
All of it untrue
And I can't undo
The untruths
I can only stare at them
And weep

I can't turn back the clock
And only remember
The two little girls
That smile back
From happier days
The two little girls
That sang "Two Little Boys"
Together
For so much more came after that
So much ugliness
And pain
And misunderstanding
Oh God,
That we had just kept
The heart of a child
Where it's as simple
As "I'm sorry"
And as easy
As "I forgive you"

I will regret

There should have been more time
For us to get things right
All the ambiguity
Shouldn't have been left
At my feet

I will regret
The careless way I handled
Our strained relationship
The time I never took
To explore your feelings

How were we to know
A lifetime
Would be so short