Five Small Words

Five small words
Five months later
"Sudden Unexpected Death In Epilepsy"
All the science in the world
To tell us
The obvious

Wasted

Who do these tears fall for?
Is this just selfish indulgence?
I don't know
But I sit
Lost in these thoughts
And time sneaks past me
Wasted
Contemplating
The unchangable

I must take this
Find something constructive
Use it
To change me
Or to build something
Or to touch someone
I don't want
This to be
Wasted

Mince and Sinew

I sat lost in thought as I do
Tears streaming down cheeks
My face has been so dry
Like a desert now for weeks

My fingers entranced by grief
Sing across this keyboard
Believing in words, like they say
"A mighty two edged sword"

It certainly cuts both ways
Up and down my useless heart
Making mince and sinew
Separating out each part

Null and Void

I have pushed things to the edges
But they are still there
Nibbling at me
I dream at night
And in my dreams
I save you
But I awake to find
My nocturnal struggle
Null and void
You are gone