One Year

A year has flashed by
I still cry in the car
Most days
Because the pain is all I have left
To remember you by
Because the pain I caused you
Is all you'll ever have

There is no second go round
No chance at doing it better
Why couldn't I have been more patient?
Why didn't I understand
What I understand now?

A year has flashed by
And I don't really know
How to acknowledge this
How to take the next step
Away from this
Without leaving you behind