Aching

Can you feel it
The sudden wave that crashes down
The guilt, the sadness
Do we all still live
With that slight shadow there

I felt a small wall
Being erected in my heart
Sometimes words pound on it
I feel my mind freezing up
But I can't take you there
Can't show you that place
It would be too unexpected for you

I don't know how to respond
I must hide me or distress you
It's poor taste to distress
So I tuck it neatly away
Respond - socially acceptably

And it makes me think
How many people are hiding
All these little spaces from me?
When I speak
Are my words pounding
On walled off hearts

Instead of sharing
Sorrow
We go on alone
Sometimes, that makes my chest ache