No Amount

It takes barely anything
And I'm back
Feeling it all
The guilt
The sorrow
The reality of loss
The wondering
The what if

Life has marched on
There are milestones
There are new generations
That will be short of an aunt
There are people you will never meet
Family who will never know you

And no amount of grief
No amount of tears
No amount of words
No amount of contemplation
Can turn this around
Can bring you back
Can undo the past